Yeah! Different ler!!

Last Saturday was 26th of September, me n my parents had been invited to a wedding dinner at Imperial hotel, ball room which is at 5th floor. We managed to reach there earlier, erm it was abt 6.50p.m something. We sat at table no.53 n it was juz beside the stage. We had a clear looked for the 'prince n princess' of the nite. They are nice anyway. haha. When the ceremony started, there was a 3-years-old kid sang a song. She is damn CUTE. But her voice juz like a KID. Whahaha. I din took any pic of her coz I m shy to do so. haha. I wear a singlet n skirt tat nite, n I realised tat I don have any others nice dress or watever. So, I decided to wear something Simple. hehe. Here are the pics tat I took after I reached home with my web cam. =) Here we go,

Take 1,


Take 2,


I m not gonna put all here coz some are not really satisfied with it. hehe. I prefer this two. =)
Oh yea. The foods was so special, it was not same as other restaurant. I ate the lamb, It was actually nice n that was the 2nd times I ate LAMB. haha. The smell was weird but I felt ok with it. =) I love the foods there. haha.

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Next, Here are the schedule for the coming As FINAL which I keep mention in the last last last post. Wish I all the Best n grab a Fantastic result so tat I wont waste the money n TIME. I sure I can do it.
My target of coz 3 A's. Physics, Chemistry n math MUZ get an A's but I more prefer my math can get an A*. THe * means tat almost perfect score. THis is my target!! CT i didn't care much obviously. I can get a PASS then good enough already. Haha.

Schedule of the FINAL exam, (Time are not confirm yet for As)
15 Oct Pure math 1 (Math)
21 Oct Thinking skills Multiple Questions
23 Oct (UEC-RRSS) Physics 1.55p.m.-4.30p.m.
26 Oct (UEC-RRSS) Add-math (1) 8.25a.m.-11.45a.m.
27 Oct Thinking Skills Structure Questions
29 Oct Chemistry practical
03 Nov Physics Practical
04 Nov Math Statistics
04 Nov Chemistry Structure Questions
13 Nov Physics Multiple Choices
16 Nov Physics Structure Questions
20 Nov Chemistry Multiple Choices

Last?

Today is the last day of my one week holiday. Within this week, I did nothing n juz relaxing until today. I was so moody in this week which i couldn't find any reason also. I felt so down n I actually din msn or message quite often b'coz of the receiver never reply it. I m fine b'coz I get used of being a lonely women. I m so GLAD tat I wasn't do any of my homeworks n getting ready to be scolded by the teacher the next day. I m READY!
Remember last time, I didn't finished juz one set of my exercise then i got scold. I felt so sorry to myself but not the teacher. I hate abt tat because tat was juz my 1st time tat I din finished her homework. I asked myself not to hate the teacher but I juz cant control myself. I hate the world but I still cant blame the God. B'coz i noe i m the one who do wrong things. I blame myself more! I m ok with the teacher who never scold the guys in my class who din finished the works. I hate the teacher become so UNFAIR. Guys or Gals are equal dont u noe tat?? There is no one who will listen to me n yet I still donno wat did I do wrong to him/her. Juz b'coz of last week? I wish...... Haiz. It is too late to explain to u or to me n I noe u will never ever listen to me anymore. The exam is around the corner n I should off myself n else force myself to study but not missing u the whole day, day dreaming everytime or waiting for ur message day or nite. I shouldn't expect u to love me but I wish we can be friend like last time. U never noe I m talking abt u but FINE!! Everything was overed n now i should start studying but not waiting until I regret abt my studies like last time. I noe wat I m doing n I m very sure tat this is my way. U got ur ways but I also have mine. Now, I will concentrate on my studies more n i will seldom on9. If u understand me, U will come n find me coz I need u. I must tell u tat TRUST UR FEEL n dont feel regret next time. Find the one who U love the most. I donno when I m going to oversea for my studies n I also donno when I will forget about u n leave the world. Lastly, I miss u n love u.. But I couldn't find the way to ur heart. Sorry, plz forgive me!

=Ching=

Friday! CrAP!

I hate today! Today is Friday.. I had a terrible dream last nite or else i can called it this early morning.. I dreamt abt a green GHOST.. GOSH!! I actually scared of this kinda of thingy.. Haiz.. I woke up at 8.30 a.m this morning n told my parents wat i had dreamt abt then they said i was juz stressed out myself n mayb I m thinking too much coz this month is ghost festival or I m bothering abt TAT thing again.. I cant stop myself to think abt him each time.. Wat is this mean? I doesn't wish this to happen also but wat can i do? wash my brain? how? Tell me plz!!! Ok, I then went to bath n had my breakfast then went to school. I dont like the CT class n so I alway go late. I reached school at abt 9.10a.m. I sat in the class n realise tat I didn't bring my jacket to school today. Obviously, my memories gonna lose so soon n my brain is Full of *SHit*. I stored too much studies thingy into it due to i m going to have my MOck exam next week. Haiz.. Today I felt uncomfortable b'coz I gonna SICK le. Not love sick plz.. I got sore throat today n a bit of fever. Haiz. Every exam period like this de. Wat's wrong???? I hate tat!! Since primary school, I alwayz sick at the exam period n remember i had my almost every semester exams in the teachers' staff room. But now it is different story already. No more caring like a Mummy. Last last month which was JULY n I had a semester test, I also got sick for one week which is my study week, within tat week, I didn't study at all. Haiz.. How come there is a lot of unnecessary things happened to me when it is in a very important time?? Crap la!! Times go so fast. Monday will have my chemistry exam which I worried the MOST. Coz I love tat sub b'coz it is challenging. hehe. U can said I m crazy. haha. Then Tuesday is math which I had too much confidence on it n alwayz did careless mistakes n rushing to finished it faster.. wed I will off on tat day n thurs I have my physics test n afternoon time I actually have a Badminton Competition at RIT. No idea abt it coz every teams are average. Haiz. Fri i will have my CT exam which is the sub tat I HATE the most. =( Hmm..

I miss him very much today!
I HATE today!
I hate myself when I miSS Him..
I hate myself alwayz GET SICK!!!!
Shit!!!
Hate hate hate!!

Sophia Chiiiing..
Hate!!!!! =(

爱上不该爱的人

最近心情很复杂。 我觉得并不是考试要到了，而觉得是感情上的事情。爱到底是什么？我怎么知道我已爱上了他呢？ 之前的感情事件我已彻底的忘了。我也不知道我是怎么办到的。甜蜜的感觉都消失在我的世界里了。我不相信永远，也不相信承诺。我只相信眼前的一切，之前就算是我瞎了，有了不应该有的爱情。我很笨没有错，也很丑，所以我觉得我不配，你们都对！算了，现在在我的脑海里藏着一个人，时时刻刻他都会浮现在我的脑海里，这代表着什么？难道这就是所谓的爱吗？有时我很喜欢和他聊天，但是我恨他消失。我也不知道我自己，我不敢去爱他，还怕他会有一天也会不爱我，这不是历史重演吗？我害怕这一天的到来，害怕爱他太多。有时我还会猜想他在那里，在干些什么。有时也会吃醋，听他口口声声说那女孩的故事时，我会胡思乱想，他会不会喜欢的是她而不是我。我很想看到他，但又很恨看到他，他的冷漠，每次都让我很生气。生气并不是每次暴力的生气，而是斗斗他的生气。他让我开心，这是我很认可的。我不敢去找他，害怕他不理我，闲我烦。我只好等他主动来找我，那就足够了。聊天其实可以让我很开心，我喜欢找他发泄，把不开心的事都丢给他，过后的我一定很开心。=）

我很肯定我自己，我不可以喜欢他，也不可以爱上他。

虽然我觉得是爱上或喜欢上了他，但是我万万不可以这么做。

因为我已爱上了不该爱的人，就是我所谓的‘他’！ =（

-爱-

Sophia Ching.. >.<